God is in Control

If you are anything like me you at times "forget" that God is in control, that he has a plan, and that although he knows the desires of our heart he is still working on his time not ours.  One of the biggest obstacles that I have faced though our battle with infertility is remembering just that as well as the battle of handing everything over to him.  I pray and cry out to God on a daily basis but yet I still feel like I'm holding on to my troubles instead of trusting him. 

God is working in my life, my husbands life and our marriage.  He continues to show me that he is there and that indeed he has a plan for our life.  I have two stories to share with you that proves he is in control of every aspect of our lives from death, sickness, marriage conflict, infertility to placing people in our paths to be there for us and to be a prayer warrior for us.

I received a call from a friend this week that left me feeling helpless.  She had left town to go see her mother who was in the hospital having tests run, soon after she had gotten there her mothers test results were back...she had progressive cancer in her kidney and needed surgery to remove the tumor, without the surgery the doctors were giving her a year to live.  I was basically speechless...what do you say to someone who has just heard this news?  By the time I got off the phone with her I felt like a complete idiot and a awful friend because I didn't have any encouraging words for her.  I thought about this friend and her mother all day and prayed that God would give them peace.  After I got home that night and was getting in the bed my phone starting blowing up with texts, I thought who in the world is texting me back to back?  Turns out it was a text from this very friend telling me a story that sent chills though my entire body..."she was on the plane heading to see her mom when she started talking to a young lady that was sitting next to her, the conversation somehow ended up on the subject of God and how he was helping her through some tough times in her life.  In the terminal as they were walking their separate ways the young lady she was talking too asked my friend if she could pray for her? my friend of course said sure and they went on their way."  God knew that my friend would need prayers and knew that she would need every prayer warrior she could get.  You see he knew what her mothers test results were going to be and he put that young lady in my friends path...GOD is in Control!

This week I had another friend that had been in my mind and heart for several weeks now and I knew deep down that things in her life weren't going well.  I have been so caught up in the things in my life that weren't going great that I kept putting off contacting her, I sent her an email on Friday night asking about her and how things were going and when she emailed me back I was floored at what all she had been though.  Her marriage was falling apart and she was at conflict as to whether she should leave or work it out.  She went to her parents for advice, one said leave, one said go back and work it out with her husband and God.  She prayed and cried for a few days and in the end she said that God spoke to her and told her that he wasn't done with her marriage and that she needed to go back and work it out.  She told me that couldn't even imagine living with her husband and dealing with all the hurt that had been caused but she couldn't shut out the tugging God was doing in her heart.  Once again God is showing us that he is in control of everything and if he isn't done with his plan for you he will show you.

We all have to learn to trust God and trust that he knows what we can handle and what we cant handle, he will not put us in any situation that thinks we cant handle.  When I have been at my deepest point there has always been someone or something that has shown me that God is in control and I believe with all my heart that these two friends and their very different situations were brought to me because God wanted to show me that he is there and that he will always be there.