Monday, February 21, 2011

5th Inning...2nd Rain Delay

Tiffany and I went for my Ultrasound this morning.  The results weren't all that good but I wasn't really expecting them to be.  The cyst is still there but it has shrunk, the last appt it measured at 43 centimeters and this appt its measuring at 40...this would be the size of a walnut.  They will not do anything fertility wise until the cyst measures at 15 or below so I'm on birth control for a month and I will go back when I start my next cycle for another cyst check.  The birth control will not make the cyst disappear but we hope it will shrink it and keep it from growing.

There will be no wait time between this months birth control and moving to the next step. So when I go back and if the cyst is down to 15 or smaller we can start immediately on the next step...the only good news but I will take it.

:-)

Thursday, January 27, 2011

5th Inning...rain delay

I went for my Ultrasound this morning...I had a good feeling about it and was actually looking forward it to as it meant that we were one step closer to doing the IUI...

So I go back and the ultrasound tech starts her thing and ask what cycle day I am...12...she said it looked like the Clomid didn't stimulate any eggs this go around unless you have already ovulated...excuse me?  And then she says...you have a fairly large cyst...UGH...again

So I get dressed and go and wait for the nurse.  Nurse comes in says the same thing as the ultrasound tech and then says that the Clomid may have caused the cyst and it doesn't look as though I will ovulate this month AND that I would have to wait until tomorrow to learn more as my DR wasn't in today...I seriously just starred at her and fought back tears...

I made it to my car and LOST it! Mind you I went to this appointment by myself...wont make that mistake again...

I then cried for the next hour and have cried several times since then.  You may be thinking Gah she is taking this hard it doesn't seem that serious...WRONG we were one day away from being inseminated...one step closer to being pregnant...yes it could be worse but I cant see past this right now...

Please pray that the Dr will call back tomorrow with semi good news...

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

5th Inning

The Clomid and "Trigger" shot in December proved to be unsuccessful on this past Sunday...

I was almost at my whits end with the month after month heartbreak so I told Jimmy that we either needed to move to the next step or we needed to just stop the TTC process all together...he said we will make this happen...

I called the Dr's office to leave a message with the nurse asking for an appointment to come in and talk about the financial side of the IUI...she called back with amazing news...my insurance covers the IUI procedure...I'm sure if someone walked by my store window yesterday morning and saw my face they would have thought I had seen a ghost.  Never in a million years did I expect to hear her to say that...I just said "oh really? ok..." and I'm sure I said something else stupid but I was just really trying to process what she was saying.  This may not shock you at all but if you know much about insurance and fertility treatments then you know most insurance companies wont cover what they label as fertility treatments.  Ive been amazed by how much we haven't had to pay for since the beginning of this anyway so I was fully expecting to pay for this out of pocket.

On to the exciting stuff...I start Clomid this Thursday...go for ultrasound on next Thursday...take shot per Dr's orders and then have the IUI done on Friday or Saturday morning!

I'm really excited and really nervous! Please keep us in your prayers that this will be the turning point in our Baby Ballgame.

...Till next time :-)

Monday, January 3, 2011

2010...

This past year has been full of excitement and full of major heartbreak...I feel like this has been mine and Jimmy's most eventful year so far...

The year started off very exciting for us! My Dad and Step mom Julie moved to Murfreesboro on December 31...Jimmy and I had been the only ones in Murfreesboro for 2 years and we were ecstatic to finally have family down the road! We have Jimmy's Dad and girlfriend Rita in Bellevue but that's still an hour away.  Its been so fun watching Dad and Julie build their lives here and they are enjoying every minute of it...they moved into an awesome neighborhood and have met and made some amazing friends.

Then came the heartbreak as we learned that we are battling infertility and its been so up and down since...I wont go into detail about that process because if you are following my blog then you know all about it :-)...I just hope and pray that 2011 will be the year for us on the baby front...

This past fall has been the most life changing for us...We went on vacation with Terri and Micheal and Briley and while we were gone my Mom was offered and accepted a job in Franklin and came to live with us.  I cant express how excited I am to have my Mom and my Dad and Julie all in town with us now.  Having family close by definitely helps me through the hard times...

I also changed jobs...which you have already read about in past posts but this was such a change for us...I have no regrets, I truly believe that this was the best move for me and for us and I absolutely love my job and my second family that I work for.

This year also brought new people in our lives...especially one person...I don't think Jimmy or I have ever met someone that we instantly clicked with until we met him.  He is seriously one of the best friends either one of us have ever had and we are so happy that he was brought into our lives...

 
Oh and there is something else VERY VERY exciting happening (it has nothing to do with me) but I will have to wait until I get the go ahead to post about that too!

New Years Eve we spent with Tommy and Elizabeth...we went to eat at PF Changs in CoolSprings then went back to their house and played games and watched the ball drop.  It was so much fun! It was really the first time we had spent time with just the four of us and I certainly hope  we can do it many more times!

Happy New Years...3 Days late :-)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Downhere - How Many Kings

Merry Christmas!

I Just thought I would blog with some pictures of my house at Christmas!

Mantel

Foyer with Staircase

Buffet in the Dining Room

Tree!

Dining Room Table

Front Door

2010 Christmas Card

Monday, December 20, 2010

4th Inning...

Lets me start with saying...I hope this ballgame we are "playing" has a run rule and we get to stop before the 5th inning...just a little humor...haha

So...we are back in...I started my cycle on Saturday so I called the DR this morning and the nurse called me back with the plan...When I left the message with them I asked for another "trigger" shot, we decided to try this one more time before we took the BIG step toward the more extensive treatments.  The plan is: I start Clomid (again) on this Wednesday, I go back next Wednesday for a Ultrasound (to see how many egg follicles are visible), we take the shot on day...whatever they say...then timed intercourse...

I really hope with the help of Clomid the shot will be successful this time...

Thats all for now!
:-)

Monday, November 29, 2010

2010 Family Pictures

We have been taking Family Pictures for the past couple years and by family I mean the three of us.  The first year we took it at our house, last year we took them at Cannonsburgh in Murfreesboro and this year we took them in Bell Buckle on the train tracks.  I enjoy taking them in different locations and they are always alot of fun.  Tiffany takes them and she does an awesome job.  This year we let Tiffanys brother Lil Joe take them because he just got this awesome new camera for his birthday and he has a great eye for photography, Tiffany was still there of course and did most of the shoot ideas.  I enjoy mostly looking back to see how much we have changed from year to year so I thought I would post the photos from the past 2 years before I posted this years. 

2008...Not the Family Picture I had in mind but I couldnt find it so this will do

2009- Cannonsburgh


2010- The rest are from this year...I love them!




The BFF :-)


Sunday, November 28, 2010

The Meaning of the Candy Cane


I know this may seem a little early but Candy Canes are everywhere so I thought I would go ahead and share this so we can all keep it in mind while we enjoy this Christmas treat!

Many years ago a candy maker wanted to make a candy that would symbolize the true  meaning of Christmas- Jesus.
The hard candy was shaped like a "J" to represent that Jeaus is our rock of all ages.  The candy was made of white to stand for the pureness of Jesus.  The red represents the blood that he shed to save us from our sins.
So the next time you see a candy cane take a minute to remember the real meaning of Christmas.

I have heard this before and forgotton the story but this was an amazing reminder!

I hope everyone is having a great start to the Holiday season...lets not forget what the Holiday really means!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Its been awhile!...

Wow! I had no idea that it had been so long since I last posted!

Not too much has been going on...I have been working non stop with my main job in Bell Buckle and on my days off at Stein Mart.  I took a long weekend trip on the 11-14th with my BFF Ter-Ter (she hates that haha) to Mandaville LA for our good friend Ashley's wedding.  It was SO much fun! The wedding was absolutely beautiful and Terri and I had some much needed girl time which we both needed...I cant wait till the next trip...Terri- start planning it! :-)
Here are some pictures from that weekend...
Beautiful!

I Love You (I turned this picture not sure what happen)

Terri and Me

Again, She doesn't like this picture but I do

Roommates

I thought this sign was funny

I have spent the last week transforming the store from Fall to Christmas! It has been crazy to say the least...but its looking so pretty! I have big windows in the front of my store so we put a sleigh in one of them  and made a winter setting...I don't have a picture yet but as soon as I can get a pretty one I will post them.  With that said it really put me in the Christmas spirit so I started saying last Tuesday night that I wanted to decorate my house...well we pulled everything out of the closet but it sat in the bonus room all week because I was too tired and lazy to get started on it...so Friday morning I got up and said that I wasn't going to bed that night until the house was decorated! I got home from work about 7 that night and Mom and Jimmy had the tree up and Jimmy had the staircase wrapped with lights and garland! I was so excited! We went to dinner with my brother and then at about 10:30 Mom and I started on the house and finished it about 12:30...what a relief!  I still have a few areas that need some touching up so as soon as I'm done I will post some pictures.

Saturday was the UT/Vandy game here in Nashville.  We as a family have gone to this game for several years in a row now and its the only game that we usually all get to go to...except this year Lizzy missed out :-(.  We left for Nashville about 10 Saturday morning and tailgated all day until the game started at 6:30.  We had a lot fun as usual and the VOLS won! Go Vols!  I sadly didn't take one picture the whole day...

Yesterday Jimmy and I helped my bosses decorate the town of Bell Buckle and then we worked the rest of the day.  I stayed in my shop and did some stuff while Jimmy went to the other shop and helped them decorate their store.  He is such a helper! Last night we went to Tiffany's and had a early Thanksgiving pre game show...Thanksgiving is Tiffs favorite holiday and she has been talking about it since July and she just couldn't wait another week to eat all that yummy food so she cooked her own meal last night! It was SO good!

I'm working the rest of the week and this weekend!  Thursday we will go to Tiffs parents (my amazing bosses) house for lunch and then to Julies sisters house that night for dinner.  This is the first year in several that I don't have to be at work at 5 in the morning for Black Friday shoppers and I'm SO happy about that!

This coming Sunday Tiffany is taking our yearly family pictures. We are taking them in Bell Buckle on the train tracks, I'm super excited!

Nothing is new on the baby front...keep checking back!

I hope everyone has a great week and if I don't check back in before a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!


Friday, November 5, 2010

Time Out!

Well not much is going on...I have been thinking, worrying, stressing...about the whole baby thing and I just really feel like I need a break...

I talked with Jimmy and we decided that we would sit the months of November and December "out"...SO much has happen since the "game" began in February and it still amazes me...
The next step my Dr is going to want to do is IUI...well this procedure is going to cost us some money...and we have to have that money up front...so that was yet another stress factor...where are we going to get the money?  I was seriously not sleeping at night cause I was nauseous from thinking about it and finally I woke up Tuesday morning thinking I need a break.  Of course this would be the one morning that Jimmy doesn't answer his phone while I'm on the way to work SO I talked to Terri about my thoughts on taking the break and why I wanted to take the break...she was in a little bit of shock to find out that I hadn't discussed this with Jimmy...lol...

Let me say that by saying we are sitting out these two months I mean from the Dr...I bought yet another ovulation kit and have the calendar printed off so I can take my temperature and do the tests for the next two months, there would be no way that I could completely stop the TTC process...but doing everything on our own just doesn't work my nerves like going to the Dr does...
So we are planning to enjoy the holidays and try to be as stress  and worry free as possible and in January, if need be, we will head back to the Dr.

In other news...I have gone back to Stein Mart PART TIME, this will be my fourth store and my third time back...I cant stay away lol  This time I'm in Franklin store under my old amazing boss Tommy and my direct manager is my awesome friend David! I'm working a couple of times a month, basically on the weekends when I'm not working in Bell Buckle.  The plan is to work through the Holidays...I worked for the first time last Sunday and it was so nice to be able to work the merchandise and not have to worry about anything else...i.e.employees, management calls, complaining customers and so on.

This weekend I'm working in Bell Buckle, Jimmy will be working with me tomorrow! That should be fun, I plan on putting him to work on some things that I want done around the store...shh...don't tell him...on Sunday night I'm babysitting my precious monsters while Tiff has some alone time with a special someone :-) I have great hopes for this weekend!

I'm not off until next Thursday when Terri and I will be making the trip to our other college roommates wedding! Cant wait to see her and I CANT wait to spend the weekend with Terri!!!

Well that's about all that's going on in my life at the moment...
Have a great weekend!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Be Thankful...

I love my friends! I have some of the most amazing and caring friends...there is no way in the world I could make it through all this without the constant care and uplifting messages I receive...

My friend Anna sent this to me this morning and I LOVE it so I decided to share...these words could be helpful to anyone no matter what the situation...

BE THANKFUL
Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference.

It's easy to be thankful for the good things.

A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.

Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings.

Monday, November 1, 2010

So Fitting...

I wanted to share the Birthday Card my Dad and Julie gave me, It gave me chills because its so fits me right now...

"You know that feeling when you are about to blow out your birthday candles, and you close your eyes and make that one wish? The wish that's most important of all? The one that's closest to your heart, and you're hoping for more than anything else?  That's the wish I really want to come true for you."

Best card ever huh?

Love you Dad and Julie!!!

3rd inning...

Well lets just say I didn't get that ultimate birthday present that I was hoping and praying for...

*** For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

***Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. (Jeremiah 33:3)

***"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him and He shall bring it to pass". (Psalms 37:4-5)

Happy November Everyone!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

2nd Inning...

We went back to the Doctor yesterday...we got some pretty good news concerning my health plus we moved to the next "inning" of this ballgame...

As I mentioned in my last post I have been experiencing some MAJOR pain at the start of my cycle so this was a high topic of concern yesterday.  As I expected Dr. Elben was not happy to hear about the pain and was on the same page I was thinking it as another cyst or some very fast moving endometriosis SO she sent me to ultrasound...I hate these...the tech came in did her thing and even told me herself that there was nothing to be alarmed about, so we went to talk to the Dr again.  Dr. Elben came to the conclusion that the pain was caused by the Clomid I was taking for the last three months.

She came back happy to report that there were no bad cysts and no endometrisosis but there was a visible egg follicle...since I'm getting close to ovulation that's a good sign.  She wanted me to take the HCG Trigger Shot called Ovidrel ( I will explain this in a minute) on Thursday ( today) and come back on Friday to do the IUI...WELL if you know me at all this STRESSED me out! Its Wednesday...and you want to do this Friday...so the Doctor leaves for us to talk and we had so many questions...so we went and got the nurse, after answering our questions she finally said "this is too stressful for you all right now, take the shot home do it on Thursday and then try on your own Friday, Saturday and Sunday...WHEW why didn't they mentioned that to begin with???  So that's where we are right now...Jimmy will be giving me the shot when I get home this afternoon and we will spend the weekend TTC...

Now let me give you an explanation of the HCG Trigger Shot...

The hCG trigger shot is a dose of the hormone human chorionic gonadotropin, which normally is produced by the body after implantation of a fertilized egg into the uterine lining. This medication is delivered by injection and is timed in conjunction with the maturity of the ovarian follicles containing eggs. When the hCG shot is delivered, those follicles release their eggs and a woman may become pregnant. The hCG trigger shot is used in fertility treatments such as timed intercourse and medicated cycles for intra-uterine insemination and in-vitro fertilization.

An hCG shot may be administered at the doctor's office or at home. The timing of the shot is very important, as ovulation may occur anywhere from 12 to 48 hours after the injection. These hours will be the woman's peak fertile time, and any timed intercourse, egg harvesting or insemination needs to occur while the eggs are viable. The hCG trigger may be administered as a subcutaneous injection in the belly or thigh or as an intramuscular injection.

Once the shot is administered, the signal for final maturation of the eggs and ovulation occurs. Some women experience slight cramping and bleeding when ovulation occurs; this is quite normal and is not a cause for alarm. Timed intercourse or insemination takes place anywhere from 12 to 36 hours after the shot is given. Ideally, more than one insemination or round of intercourse may be used to increase chances of a viable egg being met by sperm.
If the hCG trigger successfully induces final maturation and ovulation, when combined with timed intercourse or insemination, this may result in fertilization of the egg. The hCG from the trigger remains in the urine for about seven to 10 days after the shot is administered, which means that home pregnancy tests may give a false positive after the trigger shot. A blood test to measure levels of hCG usually is conducted 14 or more days after ovulation, as these results should not be affected by the trigger.

Well OK...are you confused and overwhelmed yet???...



Wednesday, October 6, 2010

All Dogs Go To Heaven

Who doesn't believe this??? In our family our dogs are treated like members of the family and they are all spoiled rotten!  So needless to day when we lose one of them its heartbreaking...

On Monday afternoon my parents had to make the very tough decision regarding our family cocker spaniel T.  T has had a very tough life and suffered some horrible pain in his 11 years.  If you know anything about cocker spaniels they are prone to ear infections and T suffered through his share of them.  Within the past three or so months T's health had been a concern, he had an ear infection that just wouldn't ease up even with medication, he was losing weight (although he never lost his appetite) and he had developed a unproductive cough as well as shortness of breath.  Over the weekend they decided they needed to call the doctor again and they advised bringing him in.  My dad took him in on Monday morning and the initial prognosis wasn't good, they wanted T to stay for some blood work and X-rays.  When Dad and Julie went back to get him they were told (in the short version) that he had heart failure, a tumor and was extremely dehydrated.  And in the end T went to Heaven!  We liked the vision that he was sitting in my Great Grandmothers lap somewhere.

Now lets talk about the happy times...We got T in September of 1999...the story is that he is named after UTs National Championship Winning Quarterback "Tee" Martin.  Now I don't exactly remember this fact as I wasn't the sports fan at that age but I do remember saying that T also stood for the Taylor's and the Treadways (my stepbrother and sisters last name).  T had his own personality, he was a very sweet and loving dog and liked people and other animals WHEN we wanted too. 

Here are a few funny tidbits about T...
He howled like a Werewolf in the middle of the night
He would only sit on your left side
He wouldn't let you lean on him or touch him unless it was on his terms
He didn't have a water bowl for years, he would only drink out of the bathroom sink
He ate the dirt out of Julies flower pots
He begged for food like no other, he would even "tap" you with his paw so you wouldn't forget about him
He liked to RUN, as in RUN out the door
He ate paper
If you tried to take anything out of his mouth you risked losing a finger or hand...
You didn't pick T up and you didn't TOUCH his ears
He could be very grouchy...
But he was a very loving dog...

As you can see everything was done on HIS terms.  We all had our own relationship with T, which was again on HIS terms...

Dad- their relationship was a Love/Hate one.  Dad has many scars on his hands to remember him by...remember me saying don't take anything out of his mouth, well Dad never really learned this.  On the other hand T loved laying next to Dad on the couch or in his lap in the chair.

Julie- T was a Mama's boy.  He slept next to Julie at night and Julie was one of the 2 people T allowed to pick him up.

Me- T was my sleeping buddy when I stayed at Dads.  He didn't sleep with me at night but he would come to my door and scratch on it so he could sleep in with me in the mornings.

JT- their relationship was great.  T was JTs little buddy, he loved that dog so much that a past girlfriend gave JT his own cocker spaniel!  JT was also the only other person T would let pick him up on a regular basis.

Chase- Chase and T's relationship was pretty good as well.  T slept many a nights with Chase.  On special occasion Chase was allowed to pick T up...

Liz- lets just say they also had a Love/Hate relationship, as in T use to attack Liz for no given reason.  She would walk into the room and he would attack.  We joke saying that T thought he ranked higher on the Totem Poll then Liz. As Liz got older the attacking stopped and the loving came around.

We are all going to miss our beloved T, that house just wont be the same...I'm going to leave you with some pictures of our Precious Doggie Angel...






Third Strike...

...and we are back to the dugout...to the doctor that is.  Our third and last round of Clomid was proved to be unsuccessful this past weekend so I go back to the doctor on Wednesday the 13th.  I'm not sure at all what this visit will in tell, they didn't tell me much when I called just that she wanted to see me.

I have been in some incredible pain the past two months when that dreaded week came around.  I literally lay in the floor in a ball and cry.  I haven't felt like this since I was about 17 and experienced my first ovarian cyst and not too long after that was when they decided that birth control was the answer.  So needless to say I'm a little concerned with what the doctor will say or think about this pain I'm having.  Please pray that its nothing serious and I haven't developed anymore cysts.

I took it this month better then the last, I honestly think its because I'm not under as much stress I LOVE MY NEW JOB! Its so laid back and I'm not bogged down with the constant negativity from my previous job.

That's about all I have right now, I will give an update next week after the doctors appointment.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

New Beginning

Jimmy and I, as well as several friends and family, have started thinking that along with health problems STRESS may be a factor with the baby process.  I have also been struggling with the issue that maybe God is waiting to give us a baby until he knows that we are where we need to be in our everyday life and that includes work.  As many of you know I was a retail Manager at Stein Mart.  I loved my job, I started when I was a freshman in college (2002) and worked until the summer before I got married (2007).  When I moved to Murfreesboro after our wedding I started looking for jobs and what did I come across?...a posting for the new Stein Mart store they were opening in Murfreesboro.  I had my doubts about going back but nothing else was really coming though so I applied and was called back within a couple of days.  I went for the interview with the Store Manager (Joy) and we really kicked it off, she didn't offer me the job on the spot but I felt really good about the interview. Sure enough she called within a day or two and offered me the job and I was starting what I call some of the best days of my life.  I have met so many people that I'm proud to call "best" friends. 

So much has happend in that past four years that it would take me about a day to write it all down.  In the end I was under alot of stress, working long days for corporate leaders who may or may not show up, working nights and weekends and so on.  Although I loved the people I worked with and generally loved my job it got to be way too much and I was looking for a way out.  I started searching for jobs online and nothing was popping out at me, one day I casually mentioned to Tiffany that I wish her parents would hire me.  Her parents, Joe and Debbie Sheetz are some of the sweetest people I know and I just knew they would be awesome bosses!  They own Two stores in Historic Bell Buckle, www.bellbuckle.com, Designz by You/Coffeez by Us, www.designzbyyou.com, and the newest store Designz from the Heart.  Tiffany called her Mom and mentioned to her about hiring me to help her and to help out with the new store and her Mom loved the idea but wasn't sure she could hire me just yet.  So I went on with Stein Mart and one day Tiffany called me at work, this is not something she usually does unless she has to tell me something, her Mom had decided to hire me! I was so excited I could hardly stand it! Of course I had to talk it over with Jimmy and get back  to her.  So I went home to talk it over, he was little leary at first after all I would be taking a slight pay cut but he said that seeing me happy again would be worth it, the icing on the cake was my boss calling me that afternoon and telling me I had to work open to close for the next 9 days cause we were having a lovely visitor from our Regional Director.  Needles to say we were both "OVER IT." 

I felt that there was something or someone behind this, it didn't quite work out the way I had hoped the first go around but the offer came back to me.  I work 9:45 to 5 Monday-Thursday and 9:45-7 on Fridays, and I only work one weekend a month and special events, that means NO late nights and almost NO weekends! I get to enjoy my family and friends again and that is something that I haven't been able to do in a long time.

I may be going out on a limb here but I feel like God opened this new opportunity for me.

So Friday September 17th was my last day at Stein Mart and Monday September 20th was my first day in my "New Beginning."  I am working in the new store Designz from the Heart, its been great so far.  I will get to meet so many people since this town is a huge tourist attraction.  I have wonderful bosses, Im not responsible for anyone but myself and I get to interact with all my visitors (customers), I couldn't ask for a better job!